Simplicity is Virtue

Saturday, January 27, 2007

finally.. i can blog again..
i'm back by popular demand?
lols.
Spenser this time i'll write a whole lotta things alright?

okays. lets start.

its been weeks since i've time to blog and i tink my blog is getting stale lols. no one except some people tags my blog anymore. but nevermind this will still be the blog where i'll pour out everything i did..
i've been kinda busy these few weeks.. with wat? i dont know..
firstly i was maple.. really wanted to lvl fast but it gt stale after a while.. and my paper is in about 24 hrs time and i mapled today.. how bad is that?
am i addicted to it? guess not since i'm stopping.
met a nice person there. her name is seow wen. hope i spelled it correctly haha.. she's my SECOND online gf(those kind of play play one la.. dont anyhow think).. my first was in RO.. and she's still playing.. lols.. anyway.. ya.. i wanted to follow glenn and outreach lols.. so when i asked her out of the blue was she a christian.. guess what her answer was.
it was a YES.. lols.. i dont know if it was a failure but at least i tried.. i think she was the first ever person i asked this question so boldy.. anyways.. we chatted more and i found out that she stayed near my old place in serangoon and the most amazing thing is that she used to go to PLMC. how cool is that? but she left and went to trinity methodist at serangoon gardens instead.. oh well.. at least i tired =)

next.. school.. i've been struggling to get up for lessons due to mapling in the night.. hmm guess i am a lil bit addicted.. but.. thats not the point here.. i missed most of the revision lessons due to waking up late and i just keep telling my mom,whose tryin to find another job now, that i dont have school.. sometimes i really dont want her to bug me.. but at times i wish she did..

another thing is NCC.. we've gt new cadets in this year and everyone is feeling all depressed and down.. danny is gonna transfer school.. xin hong, winston,walter and wai yu cant make it due to school.. xin ying would be finishing her term.. 5 years is long.. shamsul is about to go for ITP.. and that leaves with me fadhil and hafiz.. so.. being the most senior there.. i've to take over almost all operations.. i guess its time to prepare.. but where do i start?

lastly.. my personal life..
its been kinda difficult without someone whom i can share with anymore..
i know those people reading this would be like hey there's me..
but its not that i dont trust you.. its just that.. i need some one i'm used to talking with..
no offence guys and gals..
i'm like stuck high and dry and no where to turn to..
my future is bliss..
i dont know what i really want to be.. whether my course would give me a satisfying job..
am i just thinking too much?
i've been praying alot these few days.. but i havent touched on the Word in a long time..
to tell you the truth.. in all the years as far as i can remember.. i never read the bible from cover to cover.. and i feel kinda ashamed about it.. calling myself a christian and not reading the bible.. the most impt book.. after all these years am i still a so called 'sunday christian'?
i dont know..
argh.

sometimes i wish knew sometimes how i felt inside..
behind this mask..
who i trully am..
who i was..
i tink i'm in a dilemia/dilema, forgot how to spell, of finding out who i am and what is it that i'm doing wrong with my life..
sure i can have fun and stuff but i cant find the satisfaction in doing the stuff i do..
are my standards too high? or issit cause i'm too open?
or do i mix around with girls too much? i dont know.. and frankly at times i dont care..
maybe thats why..

but all in all..
i do love God..
but i just dont know what to do and i'm still waiting for something to happen..

lastly.. love life.. guess this is what everyone has been waiting for yeah?
rumors have been going around in church that i like moo right? well.. its a no.
not definite no but just no.
we're just friends..
i'm stuck in a 3 to 4 way situation here and i dont know why..
after all these years i still cant differentiate wats love and wats infatuation..
i really feel kinda dumb.. ( is it cause i'm still too simple minded at times? )

Shoutouts:
Faith dont worry.. bad things will always be followed by good things ( thats what i believe in)

Moo: happy advanced birthday to you. have fun growing old(er).

Bird: Dont put on a sad mask pls.. hate people to look sad..

Raina: hope you're recovering =)

Danny: have fun in VSS..

Kelvin: hope you'd work hard in school.. dont feel neglected in anyway.. any problem can find us.. i know you dont know my blog but i'll just type this cause i feel that you really need help..

Glenn: Thanks for creating the cell blog.. i tink that when you love someone( not the relationship kind) just spending time saying Hi and catching with them would actually be able to make someone's day. I do hope you would be able to cope with your internship and everything. Take Care Bro.

To Everyone: If you want to leave a comment, you can but i may not reply it.. and i do hope that you all have fun in ur life.. cause like my link says.. its just life. there are two meanings towards it and i do hope you people would understand it in times to come.

Goodnight all ^^
gt a flight in the morning.
SYFC i did not mean any harm.

sorry..

8:20 AM
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